Author Struggle – So Hard to Sit Down and Write

I love to write. I can write for hours. I dream about writing full time, eight hours a day. I have many, many ideas and with more time, I could write them all.

The reality is that I usually have one hour to write each day, sometimes an hour and a half. I love to write and yet I find it difficult to ignore distractions and just sit down and do it. Once I start, I’m fine. I quickly get into the groove and the hour flies by and I don’t want to stop. So why does it take me so long to get started?

distraction king quote.jpgI’m not alone in this struggle. On podcasts and blogs I’ve heard professional, full time writers confess that they, too, struggle to sit down and focus. They’re living the writing dream and yet it sounds like it never gets easier to get started.

Why is it so hard to sit and write?

#1 Writing is hard. Writing takes effort, concentration, problem solving, empathy, research, and creativity. You have to pour your subjective heart into something and then critique it objectively, push your imagination to the extreme, keep hundreds of  details straight, and build an emotional connection with characters who only exist in your mind. It’s fun, but it’s hard.

#2 Guilt. I have a family, a home, and responsibilities. Is it okay to take time away from those to play at my writing hobby? Shouldn’t I be cleaning bathrooms or bonding with my children or planning meals? Maybe. But when I stop writing for days to be responsible, I miss it. I get antsy and crabby. Writing makes me happy and I’m a person, not just a mom. I need to take care of myself, love myself, blah blah blah, sit down and write.

distraction zole quote#3 No hurry. It’s amazing what a deadline does for your focus. When the sequel to Sex Soup and Two Fisted Eating was only half written, my publisher asked to see it, and could I have it to him in three months? Sure, absolutely. It took me one year to write the first half of More Sex Soup and three months to  write the second half. When something is due, you get it done.

What if you have no deadline? Writing (and publishing) takes a long time and it’s hard to keep up a sense of urgency for something that won’t be complete for a year or more. If I don’t write today, no one cares but me. Sounds a bit sad, but it’s true.

distraction deadlineYou have to make your own deadlines, your own urgency. Submit to contests because they have deadlines. Put your writing on a blog and commit to posting every week or every month. Even if you only have four followers, it gives you a sense of accountability to those followers. Set goals for your work in progress and attach rewards or consequences to those goals. For example, reward yourself for meeting your goal by buying a new book or dinner with a favorite friend. Conversely, if you don’t meet your goal, no TV until you do or dust the baseboards in the whole house.  You can even challenge a writing friend to see who can finish 100 pages first. Loser buys coffee. You get the idea.

When you want to write but find yourself wasting time with distractions, know that you’re not alone in your struggle, but you do need to sit down and start. I’ll race you!


Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. 1 Corinthians 9:24


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Author Interview with James Watkins

watkinsJames Watkins is an award-winning author of over 20 books and 2,000 articles. He is a writer, speaker, and editor with more than twenty years of experience in the publishing world. He is also a really nice guy and a lot of fun to talk with. (I met him at the Greater Philadelphia Christian Writers Conference a few years ago.)

You can read more about Jim and his books on his website. He even gives out writing advice! In order not to repeat what’s already on his site, my questions will focus on his latest book The Psalms of Asaph which deals with the tough questions of unanswered prayer, unfulfilled promises, and unpunished evil.


watkins psalmsJim, what’s one thing you learned (or re-learned) about writing from Psalms of Asaph?

God is good and I’m not. Next question, please. Well, maybe I should elaborate just a bit. Let me quote a bit of my book as the answer:

 My daughter, Faith, cleverly scheduled a doctor’s appointment for my one- and four-year-old granddaughters’ vaccines on a day she was working. 

 “Dad, can you take the girls for their shots?” 

 I love hanging out with my grands, so I immediately said, “Sure. I’d love to.”

Then—after I hung up—I realized the implications. That realization burst full force as I held the one-year-old kicking and screaming—with sheer terror, looking me right in the eyes—as the nurse stuck her with two shots. Her older sister made a run for the door, knowing she was next to endure this humiliating torture. “No, Papaw!”

 I scooped her up in my free hand and held her tight as both girls screaming bloody murder—obviously at the hands of their once-loving, protective papaw.

 All the time, I was thinking, Well played, Faith. Well played.

 Despite my attempts to explain to the girls that measles, mumps, rubella, diphtheria, tetanus, and pertussis are a thousand times worse than a pin prick, for the rest of the day I was grandpa non grata. And all the ice cream at Culver’s could not convince them that Papaw really did love them, despite terrorizing and torturing them.

 If you’re a parent, you know that sickening feeling as you forcefully hold down your beloved child for shots, stitches, and other painful medical procedures. You feel like a terrible parent—and your child screams that you are, indeed, terrible. But you also know that your love for your child forces you to do things that now are painful, but will ensure a healthy future.

 God loves me to death—literally on Calvary—but in my limited, human perspective, I can’t see how the painful pokes of life can possibly for my good. My granddaughters are now 10 and 12—and my daughter still sends them to the doctor and dentist with me, but over the years, they’ve learned that Papaw loves them more than life itself and only wants what’s ultimately best for them. I’m slowly learning that with my heavenly Father.

What’s one thing you learned (or re-learned) about God from writing Psalms of Asaph?

Oops! I think I already answered that, but it’s really the same lesson.

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Psalms of Asaph had some delays during publication due to flooding in Texas and wildfires in California. How do you handle the unpredictability of publishing?

Not very well. It took five years of sending out the book proposal to editors and having it come back rejected to finally secure a publisher. It’s like being pregnant for 60 months!

 And, this was probably the hardest of my 20-plus books to write. First, because I knew the questions were so important and the answers needed to be theologically sound and not simplistic clichés. Second, it meant being totally honest about my own struggles. I took encouragement from Asaph, King David and other Bible characters to confess that sometimes I drive past cemeteries and think Lucky stiffs! The publisher wanted to delete that line, but I convinced them that was nothing compared to the Bible’s honest characters screaming, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” (Psalm 22:1).

 I think I’ve finally learned that God is never late . . . but he sure is slow. He doesn’t own a watch. I’m not even sure he has a “Year At a Glance” calendar. He seems to work in increments of 40 (forty days and nights of rain; the Israelites wandered in the desert for forty years), 70 (seventy years of Babylonian captivity), and then 400 years of the silent treatment between the Old and New Testaments. Nope, he’s not in a hurry! 

 I’m glad for godly delays because I couldn’t have written this book 40 years ago in college at my first job as a writer and editor at a Christian publisher. I had to go through cancer, clinical depression, broken and betrayed relationships, months of unemployment, a daughter’s divorce to a serial adulterer, and four surgeries in three hospitals in two months to get to the point of writing with compassion and comfort to my fellow bruised, beaten and bloodied readers (2 Corinthians 1:3-5).

 So, I’m learning that God is always right on time. It just doesn’t fit my human deadlines. In fact, he loves to ignore human deadlines. I think it’s during that time—often a long time—between our deadline and his deliverance that our faith grows.

watkins bookMany writers are advised to “write what you love” but “write what sells” also holds strong appeal for those wanting to make a living writing (or just earn extra cash to buy more books). Is there a balance between the two? Is one more important than the other in your experience?

Wow, I thought questions about unanswered prayer, unfulfilled promises and unpunished evil were tough. This one’s a head-scratcher!

 Yes, write what you love!

 But here’s the problem with writing “what sells” today. It won’t be selling tomorrow. So I advise writers to ignore fads and write on timeless themes. I wrote six books about sexuality. Sex sells anytime! I’ve written a humor book on suffering. Everyone loves to laugh and everyone goes through a time of suffering. I wrote a modern edition of The Imitation of Christ, which is second only to the Bible in sales. It was written nearly 600 years ago, but it deals with a core Christian commandment—to “imitate Christ” (Ephesians 5:1). And now this book on three issues that believers have struggled with since the book of Job—which was probably written before Genesis.

 So write what you love and write on timeless subjects that will be relevant until Jesus returns on his white horse.


Thank you, Jim. It’s been a pleasure!

You Really Can Tell a Book by its Cover

book cover moressMy second book is coming out soon (squeal!) and I learned something about cover art this go around. When the publisher sent me the cover, I couldn’t get excited about it. It was a beautiful cover, so what was my problem? It finally hit me: it wasn’t funny. Imagine trying to sell someone a funny book when the cover isn’t funny. They’ll look at you like you’re crazy or a liar. “It’s not a cookbook, I swear! I mean, there are recipes in the back, but it’s not a cookbook, it’s a book book, a funny one, I promise…”

I asked the publisher if we could change the cover and explained my reasoning and he listened. And now I’m excited.

The cover tells the reader what to expect from your book. If you’re not sure what I mean, try this simple test. Go online and look at a list of “top sellers” or “recently published” or whatever. Try to guess, just by glancing at the cover, what kind of book it is. Is it serious or funny? Romance or adventure? Fiction or non-fiction? Adult or Middle Grade?

When choosing a cover for your book, try to look at your cover (or cover options) objectively. If you came across that book without knowing anything about it, what would you guess it’s about? What would you expect from that book when you read it? Make sure what your cover promises matches what your book delivers.

Publishing Victory: Racing Snails

Publishing is like racing snails.

An author writes as much as she can as fast as she can as best as she can. She works hard every day, striving to produce quality work in quantity, and she waits a loooooong time to see the results of her effort. It’s racing snails.

snail 1The slow pace of publishing can be discouraging. Writing takes time and writing well takes even more time. When you’ve been patient with yourself and your process and  finally have a snail ready for the racetrack, you release him, you cheer, and then you wait. You wait to get a response after a submission, you wait for accepted work to appear in print or online, and then you wait to see the response of the readers.  It’s racing snails.

It’s hard to wait, but when you see your snail cross the finish line, all the effort and slime trails are worth it.

Here’s a recent example. Two years ago I submitted an article to a magazine. My snail was on the track. For a year and a half I heard nothing. Not a peep, not even a rejection letter. I thought my snail had left the track. But after one and a half years, I received an email from the editor. She had stumbled upon my submission as she cleaned out her inbox and she wanted to publish the article, can I please send photos.  My snail was not dead after all! He had quietly sprinted across the finish line while I looked the other way.

snail 2Racing snails is not for the feint hearted; it’s a long term game. But victory is extra sweet when you’ve waited for it. Don’t give up. While you wait for one snail to finish his race, train another snail and place it on the track. Keep racing, keep writing, keep trying, and when your snail wins, savor your victory. Slimy victory is still sweet.


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Author Struggles


I’ve always struggled with what my author blog should look like or, rather, read like. I read other author’s blogs and I have an idea of what it could be like, but it’s hard to narrow down a blog theme when I’m still figuring out who I am as an author. I’m all over the place: I write non-fiction and fiction, science fiction and romance, books for adults and middle grade and children. I think I’m multifaceted as a writer because I’m a motley mixer upper as a reader as well.

asimovTake my favorite authors, for example: Isaac Asimov, Jane Austen, and Agatha Christie. What do all three have in common? Humor and genius. (I’m more drawn to Asimov’s goofier stuff: Lucky Starr and Azazel, not Foundation.) Give me a great story and throw in a couple of laughs, and I’m yours.

I’ve swung back and forth like a pendulum on who I want to be as an author and I almost burned myself out trying to write what I “should” instead of what I love, so I’m going to stop trying to figure it all out TODAY and I’m going to flow with inspiration as it strikes and work diligently on whatever direction I’m pointed. I will aim for humor and genius and if I can hit one of those, I’ll be more than satisfied.

austinHave you struggled to find your identity or “brand” as an author? Ever been pulled in opposite directions at once? Did you ever figure it out? If so, how did it become clear to you?



In 2018 I’m going to try something new for this blog: organization. Each quarter I will post about a struggle, a victory, something I’ve learned, and an interview with an author. When I figure out exactly what kind of author I am, I’ll let you know. Until then, let’s keep writing!

Roman Romance: an Interview with author Anne Garboczi Evans

woman in traditional roman clothing posing in templeWhat could be better than a tough Roman soldier newly married to a stubborn Celtic woman? Having a front row seat to watch those sparks fly! Anne Garboczi Evans has recently released the first two volumes of her four book inspirational romance series set in the days of the Roman Empire. I asked Anne to share with us a bit of what makes her tick as an author.
1. What made you choose Roman history?
I fell in love with Ancient Rome as a child reading books by Rosemary Sutcliff. The Ides of April by Mary Ray was also one of my childhood favorites as well as The Forgotten Daughter by Caroline Dale Snedeker. In college, I took two years of Latin as well as studying the classics, which was very helpful in recreating the culture of Ancient Rome in my Love & Warfare Series.
2. Did you research history and then write or write and research simultaneously?
I spent my childhood living and breathing books about Ancient Rome, Ancient Greece, and Celtic Britain. Looking back, I probably was somewhat of an odd child. 🙂 I learned Latin and a lot about the Classical World in college, but it wasn’t until after college that I started inter-library-loaning every book I could get my hands on about Ancient Roman culture. Writing an entire series was helpful in that regard, since when I learned new things about Ancient Rome while researching book 3 or 4, I could go back and apply those things to earlier books. I can’t promise that there are zero historical errors in any of the books, but I have tried my very hardest to make sure that every historical detail, no matter how insignificant, is correct.
3. For Life or Until is the first book in a four part series and you’ve been working on the series for about a decade. Were you ever tempted to give up? What made you keep going over the years?
At a writers’ conference once, I heard an author say, “If you can give up writing, give up now! It’s a thankless, poverty-inducing, hair-ripping out endeavor that will drive you mad.” I whole-heartedly concur with his opinion. In the past fifteen years, I’ve tried to give up writing time and time again. Just in the last twelve months, I’ve attempted to give up writing on at least three different occasions. Two weeks, maximum four, of stories bouncing about in my head without the release of letting them flow through my fingers, past the keyboard, onto the computer screen, and I break down and give up on giving up on writing. Then I’m back at my latest novel, pounding away on my keyboard even more furiously than before. Incidentally, I tend to kill laptops swiftly from too much dragging them to random waiting rooms, lobbies, and Thanksgiving dinners to sneak in “just one more paragraph.”
Anne GE 2 1000x15004. What do you like least about writing?
Actually putting words on the page is hard work. I usually get most frustrated in the middle stage after the fun creative part of coming up with a plot line, and before the rewarding part of reading through a semi-polished draft. That middle stage is when I, as most authors, despair that my writing will ever be good enough. There’s always a point in each story that I’ve written where I begin to have serious doubts that I can make it all come together and pull off a readable novel. I’ve completed seven edited manuscripts thus far, (ignoring the ones at the beginning that were so poorly written that I’m trying to forget I ever put ink cartridge to paper on those ones), and I still feel the pressure of “can I actually turn this plot line into a novel” each time.
5. What do you like most about writing?
I love the cathartic release of putting one’s thoughts on the page and creating a plot line that no one else has ever thought of before. So much in life is out of our control, but as an author you can make your characters’ story turn out however you desire. Maybe I’m a closet control freak. 🙂 I also love the excuse to daydream that novel writing gives. I enjoy how writing novels gives me the opportunity to research new cultures, times, and people. I’m currently working on a series set in the Middle East and I’ve discovered a host of exciting new fiction and non-fiction while researching for my novels. Most of all, I love how writing (and reading) takes me to a different world where for a few hours one escapes all the hustle and bustle of life to immerse oneself fully inside a character’s head and see life through their eyes.
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updated profile pic 2Bio: Anne Garboczi Evans is a mental health counselor and mama to an opinionated little boy named “Joe-Joe” and very dramatic baby named “Chip.” When not writing, you can find her exploring the outdoor wonders of Colorado with her family.

Include Your Passion in Your Writing

Today I pulled out a picture book I created for health class back in middle school. I laughed out loud when I saw it because 25 years later, I am once again drawing body cells with cartoon eyes.

disease book 1I’m working on a series of blog posts for Sex, Soup, and Two Fisted Eating wherein I interview various organs whose body has recently been diagnosed with type two diabetes. Everyone’s blaming the disease on Pancreas, of course, but she claims it’s the fault of Muscle or the Kidney Twins.  In the illustrations, the organs sit in armchairs to chat with the hostess and I’m having fun adding silly mustaches to glucose and endoplasmic reticulum hair to exhausted cells.

disease book 2The blast from the past book got me thinking about where our interests and passions begin: some come naturally and some come from the influence of others. For example, my mother is a high school biology teacher who tries to make biology memorable for her students. To this day, my siblings and I can name the phases of cell reproduction because Mom invented a tale of lovers torn apart that made the phases fun. Just last month I spotted two giant stuffed sock ribosomes in the guest bedroom, ready for class. Mom is fascinated with biology, which led to my own fascination with how the body works. Mix in the conviction (and living proof) that learning can be fun, and voila! You get nerdy kidneys arguing about mustached glucose on a healthy living blog.

disease book 3What are some of your passions? Do you include them in your writing?

For a good time and a better understanding of type two diabetes, check out The Diabetes Debate: Whose Fault is it?